my first crush ( last part )

Finally, i added him in facebook..I thought he would reject my friend request....he's surrounded by girls oh well he could have forgotten me however, i still didn't forget him... He was my bestest friend and i couldn't believe it i still managed to find him but my feelings towards him is fading and soon, i will forget everything where we used to eat, used to sit and used to play...everything will vanish in a blink of an eye...no matter how close we are when we are young but things will not remain the same as we grow older like now for example..he promised me that he will still keep in contact with me but after all, he erased his memory already and sometimes i will think why am i still waiting for him? he didn't even say that he likes me... what am i doing? i was just a platonic friend of his..i just couldn't forget and pretend nothing happened....i guess its time for me to have brain washing and move on with my life.... i learn not to stay at one spot......... and good bye are words that i wanted to say to him..

fnn coursework

I'm losing my sanity because there's a lot of pages waiting for me and i dunno wad to say. my teacher promised us that we will have a practical soon. However, she fooled us..I'm extremely disappointed and feel like killing her as well as being fume about her actions but at least i know that killing people is a wrong thing to do and i will get caught so i didn't do so.....

A unlucky day

"WHY!???!! Why do i have to go through this torments?" i asked myself distraught-fully. Simply that things didn't go the way i want it to be. firstly, i got hit by a stupid bicycle when i just got out of the lift!! how could this be???!!! so 'lucky' right? haiss now, im covered with bruises and well, dun make me see that person who was riding the bicycle.....i swear i will do something next time oh well sorry if my words are furious okay buh bye blogger

Current mood :)

hmm I'm feeling relaxing , peaceful and a bit of frustrating... I wanted to know my science results urgently heheh you can say that I'm a impatient girl.Well for that, I apologize..I wanted you by Ina its a really nice song which express how I feel at this moment. Its not about I wanted someone badly its just that the song smooths my mood pace....its really very cool... I feel so worried that people might overtake me and this is one of the reason why I'm stress sometimes. I'm a girl who love to compete with others and I may be fragile on the surface but if someone ever messes up my life I would strive to win the person morally.

HIM

heheh finally i found his facebook , its been a long time ever since i saw him...i've been waiting for him like 7 years...he is my primary school best friend hahah im totally overwhelmed by this feeling that i could not explain. Somehow i dont feel lonely anymore heheheh cool because each time i browse through his facebook, i get to know he's going great without me still. He still look as charming as ever...memories flooded through my mind when i look at his picture, i can still be able to recognize his smile, his innocent smile that can melt me. what shock me most was when i was a young and damn innocent girl, he was the first guy that can shock my heart with his charming smile. However time really flies that he left the school in 2006 and he was my closest friend that i usually hang out with.. and those times that he taught me to do a star with a rubber band well, that time i was a blur sotong and he had to teach me soo many times then i will get it right...and that was the time when i fell in love with him...he is my inspiration and he gives me the moral support to do well in exams..and of course my mom ;) ....so, well his personality is good and he's kind, charming , sweet, intellectual and he is friendly too ..... well he is my first love until now .....people says crushes dont last long but seriously it depends... frankly speaking i really miss him a lot and that was the time i fell in love with my best friend.

TEST

This battle of war, i promise i will defeat the one that look down on me...i swear nothing can stop me from being the one that i always desire to be. God, please, give me the power of will to go on improving myself each time i wouldnt want to live a life full of misery. And each time, her winning brought my self -esteem down, the pain in my heart would not subside as its like a 10000volt of electric that shock my heart badly. I've been asking myself, how could this be? is it that i didnt work hard enough? or she's way too intelligent? But there's only one thing that i know, improving my grades is important.While winning people by grades is just too childish what matters most is to earn back my self- esteem. Next week, is a opportunity to prove myself im not stupid, im strong, im strong enough to face the difficult obstacles that get in my way regardless of how bad the situation is, i swear to god i must put in my 100% of effort.

My valentine 2012

English please dont be harsh towards me.. i love you no matter how you ill-treated me but please forgive me that i betrayed you for Maths and Science and you keep complaining that i was too biased towards them and did not spend much time with you... but please, Forgive me i swear i will treat you right from this lovely valentine onwards i will read more English and practice more so please give me at least a B3 ..... im sorry if i expect too much but ya.... if there's a limit in love, i wish its 10000 years for you English.. i beg you...please be touched by my words. Im sorry Maths that i criticize you just for English haiya..the most i manage my time wisely so that i can date you both during the next valentine's day